“Are you there, dad?”
“When are you coming up to say good-night, dad?”
“How many hours will you be gone, dad?”
“You will come back to pick me up, right dad?”
“You won’t forget me, will you dad?”
* * * * *
It seems we’ve returned from our cross-country trip with a suddenly insecure child. There are now few situations where this young one doesn’t get a little teary-eyed, a little nervous, a little clingy.
My response to this wasn’t great in the beginning. Patience is not one of my virtues.
Seriously? Are you kidding me? I thought to myself. Are you three years old? You can deal with this. I know you can.
But no amount of cajoling or pushing or motivating brought peace to that little mind.
And as I think back over the last seven months of our life as a family, I cannot blame this child for feeling insecure. In February, we moved out of a house that all six of us adored. Two weeks later, we ventured out in a big blue bus for four months, changing locations every two to three days, meeting new people and walking strange streets. Now we live in my parents’ basement, looking for a new place, not knowing where we might end up.
So this dear child cries out for some sense of belonging, some reassurance that everything will be okay. I suck it up and encourage my child, through my own frustration.
“It’s going to be okay,” I say.
“I’m always here if you need me,” I say.
“I would never forget you,” I say.
And I am reminded of this:
If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!
* * * * *
I am terribly insecure these days. Every five minutes I find myself doubting or questioning, wondering or searching, changing my mind or growing angry. One moment I am encouraged and motivated. The next I am heavy-hearted and deflated. But God doesn’t care how many times I need to be reminded. After I shout out or scream or whisper or complain, there is always The Voice – so long as I take the time to listen.
It’s going to be okay.
I’m always here if you need me.
I would never forget you.